My Spiritual Journey

A Journey of Awakening

My first spiritual awakening began in early 2020, just before the world shut down. What started as a brief time of bliss quickly turned into chaos. I went into myself deeply, feeling misunderstood, alone, and at times a little insane.

I moved through a wide range of emotions: joy and sorrow, guilt and pride, deep sadness and regret, freedom and disappointment. I felt strong, courageous, bold but on the other hand, fear and worry. It was a ride, one that kept asking me to fight for myself and to stay with what was presenting itself.

The catalyst was the ending of an intense connection I experienced. I realized over time that it wasn’t about the other person, but about what I wasn’t facing within me. They reflected what I had been avoiding, and once that door opened, I couldn’t close it again.

I entered a hermit phase by seeking, questioning, and looking outside of myself for answers. I was vulnerable, overwhelmed, and influenced by what I read, heard, and saw online. The noise pulled me further away from my own inner guidance, even as the world itself was going through a massive shift. This journey felt lonely. Hard to explain. Hard not to sound “crazy.” But I knew it was meant to be known and felt by me. Again and again, the universe got my attention—asking me to stop seeking validation or love outside of myself and to reconnect with me. I loosened my grip on perfection and allowed the messiness. Through the mess, I found where I needed to go.

In 2025, the growth really took root. I realized I had been spiritually bypassing and hadn’t allowed myself to feel the true depths of my emotions. I was ignoring what sat at the core of my heart. It was time to reconnect to myself and my spiritual path in a more honest, embodied way.

What this journey ultimately taught me is how to hold myself, so deeply that no matter who comes or goes, no matter how uncertain life feels, I know I am always held by me.

I know firsthand what it feels like to feel lost, confused, disconnected, and out of touch with yourself. My journey has taught me that healing isn’t about fixing or getting rid of parts of who we are, it’s about integration. Allowing the pain and the joy, the shadow and the light, to coexist.

Along the way, I felt a strong inner calling toward spiritual and energetic work. I became curious about what lives beneath symptoms, emotionally, energetically, and within the body. I was drawn to learning modalities that help us listen more deeply and reconnect to our own inner knowing.

My work is grounded in lived experience. I don’t guide from theory alone. I guide from walking this path, learning how to trust yourself again, how to hold yourself, and how to come home to you.